Life is a Bumpy Road

Austin, Texas. Travel in Texas. Life in General. "Do not go gentle into that good night, Old age should burn and rave at close of day; Rage, rage against the dying of the light. - - -Dylan Thomas

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I am an esteemed alumni of Austin College in Sherman Texas (Class of "none of your business"). I graduated with a BA in Liberal Arts as a History Major. Subsequently, I have worked in the human services field since graduation because there aren't too many jobs out there for history majors. Except for my short incarceration in Sherman, I have always lived in Austin, Texas. That's not totally true, I was born in England and lived there approximately 18 months, but for some strange reason I don't remember living there. I travel through out Texas for my job, every week. So beware Texans, I might be coming to a town near you!! I am happily married to a wonderful guy and have 0 (zero, zilch) children. (We just forgot to have them?) I find life amusing now (I used to find it extremely depressing but that's another story). So here's to Life, which after all can be a very bumpy road!

"Few people are capable of expressing with equanimity opinions which differ from the prejudices of their social environment. Most people are even incapable of forming such opinions." -Albert Einstein

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Easter Guilt


It's Easter Sunday and once again the guilt is being piled on by my mother. "Not going to Church?? Oh, ok...." But it's the look that says it all. She is disappointed. She is angry. She is sad. She is unhappy....

It was better when my father was still alive. She didn't rely on me so much, but she also didn's make me feel as guilty about not going to church. Back then it was just my lack of religious conviction that upset her. Now she's disappointed because she wants someone to go with her to church and that someone is ME.

I don't like church. I think it comes from being forced to go to church as a child whether I wanted to or not. My parents were very strict about this. I hated it. First off, I didn't like to be still for that long. I found it too restraining. Second, I didn't understand a thing they were saying. And third and most important, I was missing the Sunday morning cartoons which were different than the Saturday morning cartoons and, because I rarely, if ever, got to see them, were somehow more entertaining and exotic.

Am I now rebeling from church because I spent my entire childhood missing the Sunday morning cartoons? I don't think so. I think it is that I am not able to sit still and pay attention to what's going on. I don't find it entertaining in the least, I don't get anything out of it and I think I realized that if it's not "meaningful" you shouldn't be taking up pew space.

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