Depression

Chronic depression is an insidious thing that rears it's ugly head when you least expect it and saps all the joy out of living. It makes even the simplest daily activities like bathing, dressing, eating, etc., seem almost impossible to accomplish. Just making it through each day is a struggle. Often it is not a wish to die, just a wish to not exist for a while. some psychiatrists call this a "passive" suicide wish, but I think it is just a desire to hide a way from the pain of living until the black cloud passes. Like seeking shelter from a rain storm.