I Am Back Now

Helloooo blog readers, it's been a while. Sorry for the lapse in writing. But I am back now! It's becoming Spring here in Austin with lots of rain (which we need) and warmer weather. Everything is turning green and starting to bloom. There are a lot of allergies attacking too, so much of the city is sniffling and sneezing, but that will go away soon enough.

We are excited about all the new construction going on in town, some of the excitement is really angry aggitation since it means old buildings are being torn down to be replaced with high rise condos. But some of the construction is shopping areas and new roadways (mostly toll roads). I havent' been researching what exactly has popped up in town, especially the toll roads and since I don't head out where the roads are, I haven't experienced them first hand. But being the loyal Austinite that I am, I'll look into it and get back here with the information.


I know that the new shopping/residential area called The Domain has opened in North Austin off Mopac. It has a bunch of new stores, at least new to Austin and some apartments that are of course over priced. I may make it out there soon since my friend is looking to upgrade her wardrobe. We also have had two of the new stores at the old Mueller Airport site open which is VERY exciting for those of us living on that side of town. I haven't made it there yet to shop, but you know I will be there soon!

I made it out to the Round Rock outlet Mall for the first time and was impressed with the choices of stores. I still have not made it to IKEA yet...what am I waiting for? Seems like as excited as I was about the opening of IKEA I would have made it there by now. The sad truth is I am not able to afford too much shopping now since I have to pay the IRS this year. Once I have done that, maybe I will start on a shopping spree.

On a personal note, I am starting a week long vacation this week. Today is the first day of my vacation and I am sooo excited to be off for a while. I travel all the time and the thought of being home with no where to go is very appealing. I am going to do some necessary things like clean the house. But maybe I will take advantage of this free time to do some things for myself as well.

No more for now, this was not a very interesting entry, but I want to get back in the habit of writing, so I am just making a random stab at writing about something. Next time will be more entertaining.

Midlife Crisis or Hell on Earth

I suddenly stopped posting in January. My life got too complicated or I became too complicated. I am reaching the "midlife crisis" phase, better known among women as menopause. Suddenly I have been flooded with emotions that are very painful. I am having all sorts of regrets about my past, worries about my future and indifference about my present life. Along with all the emotional turmoil I am experiencing there are, of course, the physical issues which are too many and too random to go into right now. The thing is, I can't control any of this. No matter how hard I try, I can't shut it all off or tune it out. The thoughts and feelings just happen. Sometimes it feels like I am being forced to relive all my past transgressions. I have started likening menopause to Hell. Hell where you spend eternity being reminded of all the mistakes you ever made, people you hurt and wrong choices you made. It's very painful and not the least bit enlightening. I am unable to pick out any thing useful from reliving all these experiences in my head, just the feeling that I was and am a real sh*t.